@kehaulani
For me the very thought of losing my eyesight is terrifying. I have been dealing with Glaucoma for the last 20 years. Drops keep the pressure at an acceptable level, but there was nerve damage to my left eye before they found I had Glaucoma. That damage causes weird things to happen, but I have learned to live with it.
I have so much respect for you, kehaulani. You have gone through hell and no one should ever have to deal with even an eighth of what you have. You have so much knowledge of music, and I know how much it must hurt to be unable to play the trumpet when things get bad for you.
I hope and pray that your health will improve enough for you to get back on the horn.
George